July 18th, 2012


bah ...

Do I HAVE to have nightmares?
And if I do, do the need to be so graphic?
Either my dad is back from the dead in a zombie state and still dying. Or my sister is dead and I have to tell everyone the bad news.
Now, in this dream my sister was killed by a gay dude because his boyfriend was cheating with her. (Of course there must be some intrigue and  a sope opera touch to it.)
But seriously it was so real it was horrible. I used to dream dreams like that about my dad and I used to dream dreams like that about my previous relationship.
So, so far my dreams have come true one way or another. So it kinda freaks me out. Of course I can not predict the future. But still a dream can dominate your mood. And if you are unlucky enough and it comes true ... you are psycho-screwed.

Ah well ... I just hope my sister won't piss off the wrong gay now while she is in greece.


Of course something HAD to go wrong ...

So a bad thing DID happen.
A bad dream I had in the weekend came true.
What did I say? I have a fucking Kassandra Complex god damn it. I am not going to go into it right now.
No, no one died. No, it has nothing to do with my boyfriend (thank Loki). Something else sure did got in and down the shitter.
Fuck you politically correct system. Fuck you socialism. Fuck you losers with "white guilt". And fuck you christian motherfucking hypocrites.
More, some other day ...