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Alexandra N.S.
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"Beauty, like supreme dominion, Is but supported by opinion."
Benjamin Franklin, Poor Richard's Almanac, 1741


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I have been called cynical, narcissistic , kind, misanthropic , hateful , cuddly , psychopath

I have no tattoos no heavy piercing and no pets ....
Naah that is not accurate anymore. I have a tattoo I have a human pet and soon I am getting a dog :D

No, I do not believe in Satan.

I am a Mistress
I practice BDSM 24\7

I am a Nihilist

I don’t like people who take drugs. I don't like people much ...

My username is my own way of honoring a great book
Der Antichrist

I have a skeleton in my closet ... I really do ...

I write, I compose music, I collect stones, I knit, I paint, I puzzle, I plant, I pretend to sing, I capture moments with my camera, I cook, I bake, I run, I recently learnt to swim, so I swim, I sew, I ride my bicycle in the summer, I pool, I dart, I mini golf, I frisbee, I hike, I paint my face ... I stuff ... and I can't drive ...

I like: ... gay men, spending time alone, drawing, Americans, taking pictures, men in suits, men with tattoos, men in suits with tattoos, north America, women with brains ...
I love: ... trees, winter, cold, ice, snow and anything frozen.....

Also ... Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens. Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens. Brown paper packages tied up with strings... Cream colored ponies and crisp apple strudels. Doorbells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles. Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings... Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes. Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes. Silver white winters that melt into springs ...
These are a few of my favorite things ... ;)


I do not really like children ... but I love anything furry, fuzzy and fluffed.
I am a ... storyteller ...

This is me 20 years ago ...
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This is Me now ...


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"A common, but misleading, description of nihilism is the 'belief in nothing'. Instead, a far more useful one would substitute 'faith' for 'belief' where faith is defined as the "firm belief in something for which there is no proof." A universal definition of nihilism could then well be the rejection of that which requires faith for salvation or actualization and would span to include anything from theology to secular ideology. Within nihilism faith and similar values are discarded because they've no verifiable objective substance, they are invalid serving only as yet another exploitable lie never producing any strategically beneficial outcome. Faith is an imperative hazard to group and individual because it compels suspension of reason, critical analysis and common sense. Nietzsche once said that faith means not wanting to know. Faith is 'don't let those pesky facts get in the way of our political plan or our mystically ordained path to heaven'; faith is 'do what I tell you because I said so'. All things that can't be disproved need faith, utopia needs faith, idealism needs faith, and spiritual salvation needs faith.

Fuck faith!"



( from counterorder )





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... I am also ... a serial photographer ...
My camera is attached to my right hand almost chirurgically …

(I gots me a new one :D)Canon EOS 500D





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... and a part time alcoholic :p

I LOVE California wine!
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One of my dreams is to take a long road trip to Wine Country some day.
Preferably in a pink convertible like this one
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I am an avid Ale drinker

... this is the "food fridge" ;)
Links to my photobucket folder of foods and drinks ...



... this is the Ale fridge ... links to my Ale tags here in Live Journal



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... a full time geek

Puzzle Pirates

Join me in Viridian Ocean with Puzzle Pirates. My Pirate's name is Pixieshadow
Puzzle Pirates

View my Pirate Page

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... last but not least I am a Goth Gardener ;)

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See here if you are a member: UBC Botanical Garden
Or here for some of my latest creations :)
New cacti
Some more cacti ;)
My Desert Dishgardens



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And I live in Heaven









this ... is my favorite Sopor Aeternus song


Dead Lovers' Sarabande'

'HADES PLUTON'


I dreamt that I was lying on the bottom
of the dark and never-ending sea,
on a bed that my dead lover was preparing
with his own skeleton for me...

("...bring us a goat and we'll show you the way
straight through the realm of the fallen and slain...")
I sensed the wretched spectres of the drowned
staring across from some distant shore,
and in my sadness I drew closer,
to condole and somewhat to implore...
I am like the doubtful kiss of a corpse
or maybe the kiss of an ancient stone.
Yes, it's like kissing some marble statue
that has neither warmth nor life of its own...
("...down, further down, where the gloom becomes sound,
on to the cell where your love might be found..."
COVER THE MIRRORS, FRAGILE HAS DIED,
LEAVING BUT A STARLESS RUIN BEHIND!
SHATTER THE MIRRORS, SO THAT HE CAN NEVER BE CALLED
BACK FROM THE BLESSED SILENCE OF HIS SACRED VAULT...
No, no, no... put an end to the show!
I am going back to the land where the bone-flowers grow,
to "the wild, weird clime that lieth, sublime,
out of Space- out of Time"...
See the shape, but can't see through,
no-one can ever hate me as well as I do.
Know when to throw a laugh, know how to force a smile,
whatever the intention...I'm such a "friendly" lie!
(...bring us only this goat and we'll lead you to him,
it shall open the gates, so we can sneak you in...")
"Bring us a goat and we'll show you the way
straight through the realm of the fallen and slain.
Down, further down, where the gloom becomes sound,
on to the cell, where your love might be found...
Bring us only this goat and we'll lead you to him,
it will open the gates, so we can sneak you in.
Oh, it's cold and so dark here,
and you must keep in mind,
no-one can get you out, if you overstop time...!"

Sopor Aeternus



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